In a recent interview with Dr Ofweneke, Jackie disclosed that she never wanted to marry Blessing,noting that she had made her stance on marriage clear from the very beginning. According to her, she can not at all call the union she had with Blessing Lung’aho a marriage, maintaining that her first marriage was real. “My wake-up call was my second marriage,” she said. “I wouldn’t even call it a marriage because we never really went through with it in the true sense. My first marriage was real, and I remember telling Blessing that I didn’t want marriage, didn’t want to walk down the aisle.” Jackie further noted that her perspective about her then marriage shifted after the birth of her daughter, Zendaya. Reflecting on her experience as a mother, she acknowledged that becoming a parent made her evaluate the relationship differently, especially in terms of the well-being of her child. “When I got Zendaya, I had a moment of clarity. I kept asking myself if this was the life I wanted for myself. But I was constantly worried about what people would say.” Talking about being a single mother, she disclosed that she was the one who asked Blessing Lung’aho to leave their home fully aware of the challenges ahead as a single mother. But despite her efforts to encourage Blessing to stay active in Zendaya’s life, Jackie felt disheartened when he did not engage as she had hoped. “When I told the dad to go, he left. In my head I was like this is not the first time to raise a kid out of marriage and coparent. And I fought. Mimi na kiburi yangu, God knows I fought for the dad to be in the daughter’s life. But he did not. And you cannot force a man. I tried… And was like I can only do much.’’ Jackie moreover disclosed that she had initially contemplated legal action to secure support for her daughter and She took the matter to court, but in the end, reconsidered her decision. “I was crying because I failed this little girl. All she did was just be born… Watu waliniambia niende kotini… Nilienda. I was very bitter. I wanted this person to suffer. But nikaona Jackie, utakua unanmkaa 5th of every month to bombard this person because of Sh20,000? Is it even worth it? Is my child even worth it? No hakuna haja.’’ She credits her nanny for stepping in and providing stability for Zendaya when she felt unable to handle it all alone.
